Entry #1: Will Cisgender, Heterosexual Black men and women stand with me and for me when I need them?
I know a lot of y'all don't hate me or anyone like me, but its hard for us to see this as factual. If y'all can talk about fucking, kissing, etc and then expect us to not do the same, what is fair about that? I went to the store today to get some punch and overheard a guy on the phone. Shit, couldn't help it because he was loud as fuck:
"If you gonna invite me over, just give me a heads up next time. I dont have a problem with being in the same room as a gay dude, but I need to prepare my head for that..."
- Random Black guy
What the fuck would you have to prepare your mind for? Most of the time I and many others of my orientation have to prepare our minds to be around y'all. Why are we such a threat to your fucking manhood?! To make things worse, y'all think every gay Black man that looks your way wants your ass and dick, when in reality we dont want you and are probably grossed the fuck out. You make yourself look ugly. Black women can dance with me/us, cook with me/us, shop with me/us and talk about their male exploits without my/our judgement. Often we are not extended the same courtesy, let us want to do the same, we are interrupted and asked to see if we can tell if the dude she is fucking is secretly looking at other dudes. I am not your personal gaydar, I aint into fashion or sports and I DON'T want your man.
READ HERE: Deric Muhammad & Houston Forward Times You ARE Homophobic
Go easy?! For context, I still care for Deric and his work, I don't see him as an enemy. But this shows that even in our Blackness that we can be oppressed by folk's violence through words. Why are you silent when we get called fags, punks, sissies, dykes and etc? Why were you silent when your pastors came out against the Houston Equal Rights Ordinance because of LGBT protections without regard to the reality that Blackness and Queerness exist in the same space and time. Why is intersectionality suddenly so foreign when I bring up the fact that I am affectionate toward the same gender? Yet WE are the first to stand when you get shot down by that blue bullet, the first to organize and protest. I see how y'all privilege the straight men over me and people like me who do the work so that you can be comfortable. You think that I dont know that a lot of yall are walking around in Houston telling others who dare to work with me "I dont see how you can work with him, he on that gay shit." What the fuck is "gay shit?"
"IN FACT, we do have the same issues and then we are treated as if we are no longer Black and are still niggers in the eyes of society on a systemic and structural level...There is an overriding theme that we are being attacked from all sides, do you see it?" APW